HAND OF TIME

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With time on my hand (yes...that is singular; hand :/) I've been doing the floor by myself. Since I couldn't get someone to do it a few months ago with the slate I purchased before last cruise and the accident, I took the slate back and they gave me store credit since it was purchased before the April 15th bone shatter (and found that is the date of Divinci's bday, Great Mississippi flood, Jackie Robinson 1st black Major League BB player but hitless, 30 million starving in China, Titanic sank and invention of the bottle opener. Dun't know whether to celebrate or drown sorrows with that opener :l). I got some italian porcelain textured 18 x 18 for floor on sale with 6 x 6 for tub surround, and still have over a hundred in store credit :D Sub floor is done and cement backboard over it. I've been playing around with it and thinking about incorporating a design element or something. Better than waiting for the computer to load a page (still not working right but will give it another week and try to see if things improve with new modem ~sigh~).

This morning I thought I'd strip and stain the cabinetry a walnut brown but our universal master knows I'd rather have another tooth extraction! I may wait until after the Christmas cruise to Belize and Honduras and just buy some RTA replacements for a grand stained here or unstained for only $450 at lowes (and then kitchen later here?). I'll stain a bit and play with these while I have some time :/ I'm just soooo broke with all the rip offs and doctor bills right now I can't even afford gas to go to hand therapy half hour away this week :(

Tallest falls in CA, Belize

And yep...couldn't even afford to go see a free concert this past weekend. Robert Plant missed again. I am beginning to believe more in fate than destiny :/  I can't even THINK of what I was doing in New Orleans during the early eighties when he spent his birthday there and a friend collegue of mine, Carol, got to go :((((( I think of her a lot lately. She went to Memphis state for fine art before moving to NO where we both attended classes for graphics. She was wanting to do menus for her restaraunt bars, Port of Call on Esplanade and Snug Harbor. We were both vegetarian Virgos from Memphis living in New Orleans under a graphics program and adoring Robert Plant. Ho hum. Just not in the cards for me :l

 

 

Native boy Inland Blue Hole Belize

So I find myself rennovating again but NOT going to same places in Belize! I've done about everything there except copter or boat trip out to the Great Blue Hole. Seen the inland one, been to Copela's place, Banana bank holding Carolyn Carr's monkey and rolling on the ground outside of Tika's pen getting her to roll and bought some art, broke down in Coxcomb having to hitch a ride with native loggers after passing Fer de Lance off of Jaguar reserve to radio for help in Dangriga and sit all night eaten alive by mosquito birds ALONE, seen all the ruins (except Lamanai), etc. I'm assuming the ship willl be docked around Ambergis Caye where all the dive, fishing, and snorkel shops are and the Blue hole is only a few miles out so it is Great Blue Hole or bust! I did think on the inland one since back then there were no cruise ships to visit Belize and the locals played there so I was afraid to go deeper into the cave back then.

Well I just found out my daughter landed safely in Japan. Last message I checked today in FB (only lets me check one message at a time since the ATT thing) was dated the 6th but my grandson called me a few moments ago so I got this photo. Yes. I would love to go to Asia and have cocktails with my wing nut lol :D  I'm not alone :l There is another little improved cloned mini me out there :} I'm trying to get Mana behave and sit still for me so I can take a snapshot of her roaming butt for them this week. I know she has just been crazy busy with the flights for them all, shots, dentals, passports, etc. Says Dustin has drug this case throughout the terminal like when we went on the big, big boat lol. He's a rider and traveler ;)

My baby boy/best friend has been chipper still and flips his bone around, runs about, gets excited with his walkabouts, and still sleeps in in the mornings. He used to get us up at 5 am to go outside but now waits a couple of hours more. Annabelle and Bayou are still the Siamese Twins. His head is attached to her ass. He panicks if she is in another room and they are separated.

Till then we are really still in the wind. We like Charleston but get mad at bigger companies when they try to play the dumb card or rip off roulette not to mention they are still playing with the water around here but at least it's not a trickle :) We are still not members of any one church here either and Jim still prefers the Baptist one (wait till I get a chapel viel and take him into a catholic one lol! I need a little one on one time on my knees anyway :l). And I don't know why I listened to other dummies on claiming the accident to home owners. Our mother would've with her falls from rennovating if it were possible but I'm cutting back on some things to regroup and come out swinging.

Cade's 'Plan to Japan' lol ;)

With the hand of time giving me this time on my hand around here...I'm doing a lot of research and will come out stronger and stuff looking alright in the end ;)

PILE UPS

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I remember a friend of mine down in Louisiana that was in something like a 20 car pile up on the twin span. He had stopped in time but an 18 wheeler side swiped his truck and it got stuck to it while it drug them right on into the pile up. It feels about like what I'm going through. It takes just one idiot to drag you into a mess and while you are cleaning it up...another is created from it or another idiot comes along creating more :(  The electric company did replace the transformer, but in picking up the extension cords and also the ATT phone lines, I have an accident shattering my bones. And it's not like they care to help pay for any of it.

And ATT's fast internet they said was fixed and hooked me back up on Monday is not working out so good so far. It drug on at a 2.0 the first day but they sent me another new modem so when I have time we'll see. I am only keeping my old modem because it can be bridged to a secondary router so the signals will reach across the house to the other computers. I think they still win when it comes to who cost me more money in screw ups though but adding that to the power surge that caused me to throw the candle at the mirror in the dark when my hair caught fire and blowing out entertainment center lighting, sockets, HD in the HD TV, (not even discussing duo core computer)  and renewing a termite contract because they folded starts to pile up and deplete my finances. For now, I'm missing hand therapy to discuss odd charges in my bank and talk to homeowners :((((

The 3 trees hit by lightning from the storm aren't worth mentioning. It's just a matter of time when Jim has off and can drop them before they fall on the lawn guy. I already miss my old lawn service but he would submit a bill that was from 2 and 3 months ago so when he went up on price...surprise! I had asked him not to do this 8 months or so ago in case we got caught up in renovations, vehicle, or trip (which no South America now but Belize and cheap New Orleans excursion if we are lucky :((( ). Who saw the idiots coming or accident to come from that?!? At least the mirror is gone and to be replaced. I was brushing my teeth last week when it slipped down so blessings are that I'm not in the hospital with shards of glass sticking out of my back :l

And the beautiful slate I bought the week before the incident was taken back. I only got store credit so I opted for some cheaper but beautiful italian textured tile in 18 x 18 with matching tub surround in 6 x 6 so some things are working out nicely. I really love the rough stones but can't afford to trip on anything so keeping it smooth sailing in that area ;) Seas may get a little rough because the first thing I budgeted on was tithing :l  Next is hand therapy :/  Also is this weekend's Clarksdale excursion to see Robert Plant :(  (really blows). Who knows where I may find another expense to cut down on till I play catch up and manage these messes. Till then...more photos of the messes piling up :P

Could be worse. I keep thinking about Jim and I spending 3 years gutting the pool at the beach house because the pool companies were swamped with work for the casinos. I think they just didn't want to mess with the 10 yrs of abandoned debris we dug out in order to repair, patch,  paint and oh! Did I forget to mention pull the tree roots that grew through the skimmer out?!? Lol...it was a beautiful reno after we were done though :))) And heaven knows it was just as big of a gut mess doing the restaurant bar at the same time :l So yeah...it could be worse. We've come through bigger heaps of trouble and mess and came through gleaming so I retain a grateful heart :}

Till we play again, St. Lucia :(

I think things happen for a reason so better things will ensue. Maybe some friends will come this fall for the New Orleans excursion (and the broken mirror in the guest room will be gone and won't deflect their visit lol). Maybe next year I can get to see my daughter in Japan (who hasn't called yet but scheduled to fly out soon here) or I can do my 'holy land' tour.  The mediteranean cruises that have Venice, Greece, and Egypt for ports of call but he still has 2 weeks remaining for this year and somehow I will make sure I deflect these messy pile ups from him enjoying his time off :}

Till then...it's the bank, reno's for safety (Jim doing trees right now so they won't flatten the lawn man who is a police officer :l), bone scan results, and looks like no booth for my leathers this Sept. at the Charleston festival :/ So I'm outta here to go video Jim downing trees :l

And OMG!!! I just found out the Robert Plant tickets are free (8/11 10 pm)!! :D 

HUMAN GLITCHES

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Well...other than my bones are literally eroding and shattering, going through tons of doctors and tests, in hand therapy...I love my new doctor who is also a missionary. His office is full of antiques and crosses from various artisans. He suggested I write down my near death experience and I have been meaning to add it here and in my journal but asked why. I can't write and only blog while waiting for fast internet (which should be on by monday, so we will see but I'm not holding my breath :/). He said so I can put down as much as I can remember before I forget. I guess alzheimers next so here goes some of it anyway.

It was in 1980 I had a C section in Tucson, Arizona. My husband at the time was in surgery with me to take photos of our daughter and I am under but in this 'in and out' phase. Seems I already forgot what came first but I remember him asking "What is wrong with her e..." something or other. I also recall them taking Michelle and then what I can only refer to as 'subtle chaos'; a concerned shuffling about. Next I recall is scared out of my wits trying to crawl back into my body that was laying on the table. It's as if I could see the over view of a transparent me trying to do this when it hit me that it was my spirit that was separated from my body.

Don't waive tickets at me

I do know I didn't see a tunnel and it took a decade when near deaths were becoming numerous and more common (something over a million at the time but want to say 11) when I realized why. I didn't know anyone close to me to pass other than my grandmother who was agnostic. I just remember being suspended in this warm, loving, white light of energy. My body...or spirit, was one with it...like a small atom or ion attached and in unison with a larger, positive molecule but this was 'energy'. Totally positive and it was a bit ambiguous or 'veiled' like anything and everything could be revealed whenever showing whatever. Then there as this voice that said "Choose".

laughing AND crying

I'm not sure of 'choose what' but think sometimes whether it was to stay or come back down to earth, my body, and/or life. I know I thought about my daughter, Lindsay, and somewhere after that things went black...as hell literally. And there was this tunnel I spiriled down with negative, dark events and images of what appeared to be the highlights of 'life bits'. Then BAM! I was slapped back into my body and the left side jerked twice. I became a bit aware that my arms were strapped out to the side then I was just out, or blank again.

After all of that I remember a doctor asking me where I was and I struggled to lift my head and open my eyes to enthusiastically yell out "Tucson!!!" And the funny thing is that being in that light was the most euphoric experience I have yet to know. No fear, pain, chaos, drama...just peace, love, and 'all knowing'. It was like we each have this job, no matter how menial or grandiose...we each play a part...causing an action that carries like a wave of energy to the things surrounding us.

Lord only knows if I chose the right thing or not though. I have one daughter that thanks the fairies in the universe and the other plays vile music and is predominately agnostic. I love them both dearly, pray for, worry about, cry over, and miss. I may have failed but whether my experience was an NDE (near death experience I call 'flatline' or 'died') or just an out of body experience, I do know my spirit was on it's own journey, I changed into a VERY talkitive person, had more odd experiences but the other surgeries were ok other than one took 3 days for me to awaken and this last one...well...it was a bit strange but no out of body stuff ;) (I kept waking up over and over again only when my eyes would start to open...they would roll back into my head. It took an extra shot of something or other after all day and half the night :/).

My doctor was right when he said I'd forget, change the story to add more etc. because other instances flooded through like going up on Mount Lemon the night the photos were developed and my ex husband told me of the events from his view. I already forgot what he said other than he didn't want to talk about it again and I felt like I was telling everyone I was abducted by aliens or something. It just wasn't too common back then but I'm past caring if anyone thinks I'm crazy or not. I like the company I keep and you are either a believer or you are not. One day you have to come off the fence post but I hope it's with an open mind because you can get a glimpse into the metaphysical or unknown world if you are open to it ;)

Lifting Spirits :)

It continues to change me today and is a part of my testimony. The best thing I learned from it is to keep faith, hope, have no anger in your heart, keep loving and positive, live right (and the bible is our guide...especially Sirach from the Catholic bible), refrain from maliciousness or lewd acts, help when you can, and just grow, grow, grow. It's in growth you learn and are not spiritually dead.

Human Glitches? Experience usually comes from them. It makes us a bit more wise and able to make good decisions from them with time. I feel I bought some :)

*My treasures are my daughters, dogs, and spouse. Thanks to my husband, Jim, for giving his harley up again and booking to take me to South America from the 8th to the 23rd (not this month). We will also get to see his grandson in Miami before we sail. I'm just so tired all the time and feel it's really precious these days. Not to mention he works a lot so we really need to embrace it. I've always felt like an old soul and I want to make a special memory with my best friend, companion, and love during our life here together :}